oNe laSt daE tO gO...

tmL ish the BIG DAY! My goodness. haha. time reali flies. Not long ago, we were juz sitting for our papers. Now is the results. OMG! i m feeling the stress liao. haish. Wat if i flunk my humanities? Wat if my highest grade is oni a B3? Wat if i fail eng? Wat if... Haish.. so many "wat if.."s passing thru my brain.. i M so stress out.. haiz haiz haiz... okay.. dun tok abt these stupid tings.. i shall leave all my worries to 2 pm tmL..=)

Well..well.. sian..i haf absolutely nth to do..*yawn* perhaps..i shld pop back to slp..haha..tata.. signing off..~xIn

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Okay. I juz reach hm. haha. Very tired. Had a long weary dae todae. haha. well. to begin it off. i brought minglin. zufar. n fungi to crash pJc. haha. miss them so much.

well. hmm. then. todae wus IETL dae. standing for erm..i forgot. oPps. haha. whu cares? hmm.. then they expect all J1 to stay back till 5pm.. what the hell lorh. haha. but then again. i did a BAD ting todae. =Pp me, evon, kok peng, yifang n yvonne tried climbing the 2 plus metres high fences. CUZ the stupid security guard refuses to let us out! well. evon, given her tough physique, she did it without ane sweat. kok peng managed to sneak out thru the main gate. haha. left me n the other two gals. we tried to climb. haha. yifang got stuck on top. cuz her skirt wus hooked by the fences. then kok peng, wanting to b the hero, climbed back in to help out. haha. well. hmm. then. the wae he helped wus lyke. ermermerm. kinda sensitive? haha. but nvm lah. else yifang will b stilstuck up there liao. haha. well me? i cldnt get ova. end up wif several scratches. haha. yvonne too. her injuries were worse. haha. well. i noe it wus a silly act. but it wus damn fun lorh. haha. kinda exciting. MY FIRST TIME. being so notti. =Pp

hmm. okay. juz now before i came here. i went to read one of my klassmates' blog. well. i noe i pissed her off. due to my heck care attitude in doing hwk. well. i simply cant help it rite? when i juz haf too much on my mind n no one to tok to. i simply dun haf ane mood to do my work. wat the hell. okok. i m in the wrong. but if u were me, perhaps u will understand hw awful i m feeling nowadaes. sorrie for pissing you ppl.

Results cuming out soon. dun whether to b happie or not. haha. rite now i m very confused. Sum ppl are worried tt their results mite fail their hopes. of cuz i m worried abt tt. but i m more worried abt the path i m going to take after the results are out. well. i dun wana choose a path tt i mite regret in the future. i m so so so so confused=( haish

well. todae wus okay. Xcept for sum unhapi stuffs here n there. haish. take care pplz. n gd luck for ur o lvl results.=)

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hmm. Juz reach hm not long ago. Had mass J1 bbq in sch. haha. Kinda enjoyed myself. hmm. Din reali eat much. haha. On diet mahx. Geez. Been growing fatter after vdae. Been eating too much chocs liao. Kekex. Cant resist the temptation mahx. I love chocs!! Chocs iz my life. Heheh..=P

oH yAr. todae i finali finali finali started learning the guitar properly. Been too lazy liao. haha. i luv my guitar. haha. my "hubby" leh. haha. well. nan de tt i willing to learn patiently. haha. i am amazed by myself too. haha. HOWEVER. i m nt going to bring my "hubby'" to sch liao. todae one of my klassmates fool ard till one of the strings snapped. wad the hell lorh. i wus so heartbroken lorh=( *sobx* haish. so damn violent de my klass ppl. not all lah. haha.

hmm. yupyup. Juz now gt mass dance. woohoo. so fun. kip changing dance partners. well. all the bpians were juz so enthu. haha. bPians roX. haha. oh yar. SoonkEng n hongyun crash my sch. all the guys did the bp cheer. n bp bay. N though it wus so noisy. i cld still hear soOnkeng. he is damn loud lorh. -_-" hmm. had lotsa fun todae seh. haha. mass dance rox. haha. =P Saw ermhmm dance wif jenN wor. haha. gd luck. hope to get gd news SOOn. =)

hmm. well. results gona b out nxt week. yay! so happie. =) duno why. i m juz crazy nowadaes. Forgive me bahx. haha. =P hmm. gona go slp now. very slpy seh. very tired todae. had a violent pe lesson. plus mass dances. i m so dead. haha =P

tata ~xIn

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hmm. Long long time nv blog. haha. well. been very sick. N been in n out of hospital for bloodtests n stuffs. Thank God. I m still alive. Everyting iz fine now. Haha. Except tt i reali gt freaked out when it cumz to needles n stuffs. I hate them in fact! haha.

Alright. This entry. I wld very much wan to address to my bestest fren, Raine. Hey gurl. I m veryveryvery sorry. Erm. To b honest wif you, i seriously haf nv seen him more than juz a gd fren. Truly. well. as much as rejection wld do him more harm than acceptance, but reali, i hafta b fair to myself and to him rite? My heart belongs to sumone else. I cant juz for the sake of nt hurting him n juz accept him when i m stil in luv wif sumone else rite? =/

well. Juz now i read his entry on you, my dear gal. See? You does exist in his life. You played a more crucial part than i did. In fact, you did much more than i did. You did more than you shld help. Evryting tt you did for him wus out of love, i tink? hey, it's juz a confession. nt tt i take it lightly. hmm. well, i dun tink you shld take it tt hard too. Fight for your happiness, my dear gal. I can see tt you are stil in love wif him. Y giv him up to me? nonono. i dun wana see tt happening k? well. a relationship build up wif frenship as a strong foundation is surely stronger than a mere normal relationship. DUn giv up k? Gambate =) oH yar. n happie Vdae.

hmm.okay. juz rmb. VDae is cuming wor. haha. everyone seems to b busy wif getting gifts for their loved ones wor. last reminder ler wor. oni left a dae to vdae ler. hmm. me? i spending it either alone or wif frenz. pathetic. haha. but nvm lah. whu said vdae is oni for lovers? haha. =P okiex. well. happie vdae to all! Mae all couples haf evalasting love. takecare

Signing off...~xIn

~ chIneSe nEw yEar evE ~

happiE new year..haha..kinda early to haf tt greeting hor? hee.. todae went back bP. haha So fuN. see so many ex-bpIans. Sumhow, the guys changed most huh? Sum grown fatter. pPL lyke jiawEi gain weight until i almost canot recognise him. haha. nt that he now very fat lah. but he reali look diff. haha. Sum grown taller. haha. oH ya. Seen alot of new hairstyles. Mogu wif his Spiked hair. hmm. i dun lyke it. haha. still prefer the mushrOom heaD. haha. yAngOu wif his kinda long hair. weird. instead. he look beta wif spiked hair. HE DUN BELIEVE me!! arrgH! oh yar. BEST: weiyang.. haha.. he dyed his hair. brown isit? very nice lorh. suits him man.=)

let me tink stil gt wat arh? hmm.. this yr new yr celebration is lyke concert lidat. gt SHE. gt SHIN. haha. woOotz. bUt quite nice oso.=) then oh yar. of cuz we din forget our bP cheer. n Bp bAy. hur hur. =P well.. todae reali had fun. =)

I am sorry, raine. reali reali sorrie.

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Seriously, i dunoe wat to blog. Todae iz a sad sad sad n awfuL dae for me. hmm. since last nite, i woke up wif a nitemare n my forehead boiling lyke hell. Den, i cldnt get back to sLp. Itz nt mainly cuz of the fever. But the content of the nitemare. I cldnt rmb the details vividly. But sumhow the nitemare brought back memories. Memories, tt hurtz me to b reminded of. haish. Dun feel lyke toking abt these stupid tings rite now. i still hafing a high fever. Very tongku lorh. =(

Hmm. now the weather lyke preparing for a downpour lidat. The wind. Cold n merciless. haha. i shivering lyke duno what. even dough i haf my jacket on. haish.

Boring lah. Todae went for choir early in the morn even though i am seriously sick. haha. stubborn hor? Yarh. That iz me. Hee. well. i tot it wld b beta to go out than to cope at hm n rOt. haha. well. i m disappointed at pJc choir. it sux. wat to do? haha. sian. i dun feel lyke going to sch liao. itz so nt FUn.=(

well to end it off. i still feel very lost. I duNo wat to expect... when can my pain end? >.<

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hmm. sian lah. sian arh. i m sOooOoo stressed! stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. damn stress out lorh. I miss secondary sch life!! haish. everyone wus so much so happier then. well including me. hee. haish. i reali miss life then. now everydae lyke so depressed lidat. haish. i TRIED to b happie. but. duno why. juz cant b reali tt happie. itz lyke i hafta force myself to be happie lidat. arrgh!=(

hmm.. as MRS. BENNY request. haha.. kidding. itz my own idea. i wana continue to write my thanksgiving list. haha. =Pp

yupz. next iz BENNY..diz..oni raine can call.. haha.. normal pplz lyke me call.. dun haf the effect n the meaning liao mahx.. heez. hmm. this guy. i gt alot of tings to sae abt him. but truely, i duno wher to start. haha. Well, in an indirect wae, he taught me how to cherish life. By setting a real bad example in my opinion. hmm. this guy. born shy by nature. haha. hmm. raine stil rmb last yr VDAE mahx? very memorable bahx. haha. You two reali make a great couple lorh. haha. well. how to sae leh? we were great crapping buddies long time ago. haha. cld crap abt almost aneting under the sun. BUT then OF CUz, we werent as close as raine n him lah. haha. =Pp hmm. now. trying to get back to normal lorh. hmm. this guy oso showed me the bad effect of DIETING. wah liew. he is damn skinny lorh. still rmb mah matt? well. Benny will always b a gd gd fren to me always no matter wat. =)

hmm..next.. how can i forget this cute cute little guRl?? ceLest!!! haha.. this little chiobu is already 17 now. ahha..older than me wor. tsktsktsk. but behaviour wise..ermhmm..*coughs violently* mismatched?? haha. my close fren toO. we can go crazy together. tok cock tgr. haf bdae bashes on each other. haha. yarh. we are a crazy couple. =Pp hmm. oh yar. she noes alot of tings abt me. haha. thanks for lending a listening ear wheneva i reali feel stressed out. haha. thanks for helping me kip secrets. thanks thanks my dearest gal.=) oh yar. muz grow up yea? haha. canot always so crazy de. haha. well.. thanks for being my gd gd fren for the past two yrs. though we oni gt reali close during last yr. haha. =) take care ya? luv ya lotsa. =) *muackx* see ? i so gd to u.. haha..

hmm.. thatz all i can tink todae ler. very tired lah.. shall end it here for todae. hmm. duno why recently i kip wondering wat iz the meaning of living so aimlessly. I m juz lyke a zombie. All lost. =(

spEciaL eNtry ^.^

heyhey..suddenly got the urge to blog a "thanksgiving" list. Think gona b very lengthy. cuz too many ppl to thank ler. =)

first on the list..iz ..yarh.. haha..my dear..the one i loved. hmm. Thanks for the good memories. Thanks for changing me. Thanks for changing for me. hmm. well. thanks for loving me once. haha. well. thanks for everyting. U leaving me iz the worst xmas gift i eva gotten. But. I learnt to b tougher. I learnt to b more independent eva. I learnt alotalot. though dey were all in a hard wae. Sadly to sae. I still haven gotten over u. haha. itz so damn hard. =( well. at least we happie tgr once. thanks. it meant alot to me. =) i sincerely wish u n her to b happie tgr..n mae ur relationship last..=)

next. mY bestest fren raine the chiobu..haha.. nt exaggerating lorh. this gurl iz reali pretty..most guys' ideal girL. haha. i can swear on that. well. gona thank you wor. thanks for knocking sense into me wif ur chiminology on love n relationships during my darkest times. thanks for your 'counsellings'. Seriously, you do make a good counsellor. haha. thanks for lending a listening ear wheneva i feel down. i always feel so much beta after toking to you w/o fail wor. =) hmm. u oso taught me sth. haha. ur devotion towards benny. haha. no kidding. i can still rmb clearly what u did for him. reali. it wus very noble of u. though alot of ppl disagree. i dun care. i still tink you two are the best compatible couple ard. hee. =Pp truly. well. thanks alot for everyting my dear gurl. hope to see you when u cum back to singapore. =)

uP next. eriC ng..haha.. the most blur-ish guy i eva seen. he oso my best best fren wor. Always ther for me wif a listening ear. haha. Can always pour my sorrows, complaints, n craps to him de. He nv did seem to mind. haha. well. always blurblur de. haha. tink is by nature bahx. well. Thanks pal. hmm. oh yar. you hor. although on the surface lyke treat relationships very lightly, but i can still see tt you reali do care for the one u loved. haha. forgive me for always lecturing you on tt lah. Cant help it lah. I m a gurL too mahx. well. xie xie ni..=)

hmm..then followed by..matthew..haha..another of my goody fren. a caucasian whu speaks fluent chinese. Amazed? haha hmm. heard tt u already got a fan club in acjc ler wor? haha. so popular wor. haha. hmm.gona thank you for ur preachings. haha. i learnt alot from you too. haha. we went thru quite alot tgr rite? haha. hmm. well. i will always bear ur words in mind de. they kip me going n motivated. thanks i will always try to stay happie de. =) haha. hmm. actuali, i tink u din realise it. i knew u since sec one. haha. in drama n in choir. when mingxuan wus still ard. haha. everyting seem to happen so quickly..well..he wus a great fren to me too..=) well..matt. hope we will b frenz foreva..=) take lotsa care. thanks alot wor. =)

weiyang aka FRANCIS..another of the guailan gang de. haha. duno why he recently becum so religious. haha. matt's influence? haha..well maeb itz quite gd this way too. =) hmm. this guy. always so rebellious. but he reali very jiang yi qi de. take real gd care of me. haha. he made me cry two times. haha. i tink u quite scared of me ler hor? haha. i too emotional ler lah.=P dui bu qi.. haha..well..this guy taught me tt frenships last longer than aneting.. n tt love at our age now is merely nth.. haha..dun see him always so rude n violent.. sumtimes he reali philosophical de lorh.. at least tt gd side of him wus shown to me =) thanks weiyang..u are always my bestest sista ard..=) *winkx*

oH yar! most imptly!! the LamsOon gAng..consisting of francis kang weiyang, matt*ma tai*, jiesheng*forgot wat u all call him ler*, Josiah*sia zai*, jiayong *da tou*...reali gona thank you guys for making my 16th bdae a memorable n happie one =) i noe you guys took alot of trouble to get those gifts for me. thanks. if i m nt wrong, u all sacrificed ur lamsoon time abit isit? haha. thanks thanks. haha. =) you guys rockx man ^.^ continue to strive on wif the lamsooN spirit. =)

i tink ttz quite alot ler hor? dun wana b so naggy. haha. nxt time then continue more.. haha.. bleah.. i reali gt alot fo ppl to thank de..=) hmm..if nt for these gd frenz, i wldnt b ME. haha. itz that serious wor. well....juz wana sae.. THANK YOU to all my great, angelic frenz whu were ther for me always.=) love ya pplZ..*wink* haha. *muackx*

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todae wus a boring dae. Haha. Which schdae isnt? Haha. Well. todae i wus damn sick. Wus sick since ysd. But too stubborn lah me. haha. still went sch. haha. well. felt lyke fainting thruout the whole dae. Sian. Todae went to check the tryouts results. Haha. Badminton n odac both dun wan me. Hmmph. fine lorh. Nvm. i stil gt choir. haha. =P

after cheena lessons. me, evon, fiona went lot1. haha. gt a big surprise. haha. i saw CAi hong. my beloved chinese teacher. Gosh. we were all so excited. think ppl whu were ard us gt reali pissed off becuz of our screamings. haha. Just as expected. Cai hong wus shocked to noe tt i m taking CHINESE A. haha. my cheena is reali tt BAD. haha. i dun deny the truth de. well then. saw KANGYU. wah liew. he growing taller n taller. now already 187 liao. i look up at him still nidda strain my neck leh. liew. hai wo feel so inferior. =P well. we chatted for very long. haha. so fun. reali miss alot alot of ppl manz. hee. hope to see u guys sOon..=)

i m bAck ^^

Geez. I am finali back home. HOme sweet home. haha. Hmm. Din blog much for this week. Let me recall...First n foremost, i din go for the student council interview eventually. haha. not back out horx! haha. I actuali wanted to join O2 *the student council* juz to b an ogl bah ler. haha. but then again. i most prob wun b even staying on. haha. hmm. ya..tt wus on erm wednesdae.

then came thurs. I went for badminton tryout. Haha. It wasnt as tough as i tot. haha. but then. I wus initially scared haha.cuz of the pros playing very skillfully mahx. hmm. ya.

Then came fri. haha. actuali i wus supposed to end lessons at 3.30 pm de. But i sneaked out at 12.30 n went hm to rest n grab my stuffs for choir orientation. Went back sch ard 4 n went for ODAC*outdoor activity club* tryout. Itz wus pretty fun n exciting. Had a pleasant icebreaker session. haha. Played "elope". me n my partner very pro. ttz sth i m proud of. we kip kena sabo. but end up we din get forfeited cuz we sprinted very well tgr. haha. then. we had to play a telematch. wah kao. gt sth lyke the napfa five stations lidat. nidda do chinups. o.O haha. lucky mypartner quite fit. he sae no prob. haha. i din force himhorx. haha. oH yar! he lied to me lorh. cuz nidda sprint 400m mahx. then i asked him whether he can run well ornt. he told me he sux. then when itz our turn. wah liew he sprinting lyke hell lorh. i wus practically being dragged along. nearly died. haha. but nt too bad. lucky i can run. haha. then he proceeded to do chinups. situps.climb the wall. then. i wus blindfolded n he dragged me again n sprinted another 400m. Being blind sux lorh. me very kelian. nearly tripped. If nt for mypartner whu wus holding my hand tightly i wld haf fallen flat. haha. the games were pretty gross. then gt interview. haha. i ACTUALI chatted wif the interviewer wor. so nt my style. haha. =P after odac tryout, i wus pretty drained. but stil alive. haha.

then i went for choir orientation LATE. haha. they were having dinner liao lorh. haha. yarh. met the J2s. Gt a few decent-looking ones lah. hmm. ppl lyke shawn. but too bad. he alreadi ming hua you zhu liao. itz so obvious lorh. he n jaz. thruout the whole ting. kip protecting her. tsktsktsk=X the choir VP david. is a fun-loving guy. very nice lah. took real gd care of us. to the extent tt he watch ova us thruout the nite n nt slping. so noble wor. haha. hmm.during the nite we played alot of games lorh.. too bad no haf nite walk. sad. but it wus damn fun as my grp wus a bunch of enthu n fun ppL. haha. hmm. well. then we had ghost stories sharing session. david's idiot idea. hai wo dun dare go toilet alone. PURPOSELY ONE ARH? hmm. then ard midnite we had movie screenings. watched "a walk to rmb", "dodgeball", then finali "dirty dancing" haha. watched till ard 4+ am then everyone is finali aslp haha. i fell aslp during dodgeball cuz i wus too drained liao mahx. CAnt blame me. I had all the physical stuffs all in one dae. CAn die leh. wah liew. then hor the air con damn cold lorh. i wus shivering lyke hell. then i tink itz david whu saw me lidat. haha. then he went to increase the temp. n lend me slping bag. wootz. thanks alot man. reali very gan dong. *sobx* so touched. Geez.

hmm. then morn gt play couple games. haha. shawn n jaz. wah liew. stuck tgr lyke superglue lidat. haha. think they enjoyed it most. hee. play captain ball. my god. seemzlyke dodgeball style lorh. so many injuries. haiyo. so violent lorh. then went play wet games. stupid shawn. wat stupid rule lorh. can blast him wif water bomb. hai wo kena kick out. hmmph. jaz!! ur hubby bully me!! =p the sun damn hot lorh. i kena sun burnt again lorh. haish. getting darker le. dennis i breaking ur record ler.. wootz.. hey muz mit up one dae..dun always b bz wif ur gals.. i m very impt too!!haha..bu yao lian..no lah..reali long time nv see u ler lorh..find time for me k? =)

hmm. then lunch wus yummielicious. haha. yum yum. i tink i wus a little too harsh to david.Opps. i wus reali juz kidding de. reali. i swear. DUn angry wid me hao mah?=( duibuqiduibuqi...hmm..then continue playing captain ball. same ting dodgeball style. more casualties. haha. i wusnt one of them. hee. i oni gt alot of bruises. cuz alot of ppl kip banging into me. wad da. esp tt david. i noe i nt within ur eye level lah. no nid lidat de dui mah? hmmph. hmm. then after bathing. went watch white chicks. haha. wootz. so nice. i duno watch hw many times ler. haha. hmm. well. then shawn looking for trouble lorh. kip pausing to giv announcements. haha. well. then when the orientation ends, everyone helped to arrange back the chairs lorh. then idiot lah. i wus aching all ova due to ysd odac tryout. then had trouble moving the chairs. then david stood ther stared at me lyke i m an alien lidat. N stil asked " y so dead? very light oni mah" arrgh. lucky he gt help me move the chairs after tt. else he reali wld haf gotten a bashing frm me de. haha.

choir pract start nxt thur n sat. whoa. i m looking forward to it man. though they stil dun haf the quality yet. but i juz luv the spirit lorh. everyone juz luv to sing. n is so enthu. coOl. so unlyke bp choir. go ther will feel tt i haf grown older each time.=( haiyo. well. all the results of the tryouts will b out on mon. c lah. if badminton wans me. i dun mind. odac. hmm. stll considering. haha. choir rox. =P

oh yar. my present klas gt klass outing seh nxt sat. dun reali tink will b a success. haha. hmm. i juz hate the rV ppl in my klass. except sophia. they juz sux lorh. act so arrogant lidat. one fine dae i gona smack them man. if they are so clever they wun b ending up in pj liao. IDIOTS!! arrgh.

vdae iz cuming ler. wootz so fast. raine arh..u gd wor. lucky u now in england. else...u noe.. i will..ermhmm..BENNY...=X oops. i din sae aneting wor..=P haha..well..take care ppl..~ tata

~learn to cherish every moment of ur life~

tiring seh..jc life sux..

I m so so so tired lorh. Haish. Tak boleh tahan liao. Jc life reali v tiring. Now oni hafing the lectures n tutorials lorh. N i m already lyke so drained! haish. Cant imagine wad will happen when the ccas start lorh. Oh yar! I got thru the audition. Haha. Went to check the noticeboard todae mahx. Saw shaowei n edi's name. Haha. i wus screaming lyke hell i noe. Happie mahx. Heyhey dun get the wrong idea. I m NOT interested in shaowei. Though i am alwaes lyke sae him my IDOL..haha..ppL talented mahx. I wus juz kidding de mahx. Dun anehw spread. haha. He iz juz nt my type. Though he iz so talented n quite gd looking. Haha.

Oh yar. Todae had sum kinda "interaction" wif our direct seniors. Wah seh. Disappointing lorh. No shuaiges at all. Haish. Saddening lorh. Nearly go 'crash' other klasses.=( Hah. Then hor. Thruout the "interaction" tingy, I wus flipping thru polys stuffs. Kinda made up my mind nt to stay in Jc liao. haha. Duno why. I m juz so tired of studying so hard. No longer motivated as before. Haish.

Alright. My dae sux. T gt the interview for student council. Duno why so many ppl so scared for wat. Juz an interview oni wat. Wadz so big deal? haha. I heck care lah. Iz either they wan me or they dun wan me oni wat. As simple as tt. Haha. Whu cares? Wish me gd luck. haha. =)

~i am learning to let go...~

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Juz finished pia-ing two maths C tutorials. Boring. Finished within 1.5 hrs. Haha. I m going back to being a nerd again. I am amazed at myself too. o.O" Hee. Perhaps. I am just trying to force myself to forget everyting bahx. Right now, I dun feel lyke tinking abt aneting liao. I juz wana live my life to the fullest. Not much time left. My op iz cuming ler. If it doesnt go well, haiz. I duno lah. I am nt very optimistic abt this. Haiz.

Dun tok abt saddening tings liao. i must cheer up.

Oh yar! todae met jason at the mrt platform. Haha. I gave him a scare. Cuz he wus so engrossed in msging duno whu lorh. So funnie his expression. Nearly burst out luffing. =P Hmm. Duno why. I kinda miss everyone lorh. Now. See those whom i long time no see de. I will be so damn happie lorh. Hee. Abit sot lorh. ~lalala. I wana organise klass outing leh. haha. DJ!! ORGANISE QUICK! Haha. Else i organise go ESCAPE hor..=P By then YOU BETA TURN UP!! NO WAE OUT LIAO=P

One more thing! Todae i went sch psycho everyone. Haha. Hey bpians! Letz go back bp on cheena new year! Letz break the stupid rules! To hell wif the stupid banning! I am going to bP to do the Bp cheer WITH THE BANGING OF TABLES! N the BANANA DANCE. Letz teach the sec ones n twos..To hell wif HELMET HITLER =P Letz make sure that she has a heart attack n die! haha. i am so Mean. *bleah* Cant help it. Haf been too guai for the past few years. Cant blame me lorh. =P haha. Duno why i so crappy oso.

Hmm..I juz wana b myself. N try to find the old me back. =)

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long long time nv blog ler. Sian. Alot of tings haf happened. Been very depressed n stuffs. Bz trying to get over everyting. Trying to get back up on my feet. Doing these all alone iz damn hard. Haiz. Why shld i be crying bcuz of sumone heartlessness? There is no need ler. I learnt my lesson. The hard wae. I dun eva regret noe-ing u. Juz regret losing you. Ended up wif ur heartlessness. Nothing matters now, i guess. i am stil trying to find the old me. The old jiaxin whu iz cheery all dae no matter wat happens. The old me whu enjoys being ard wif ppl n hafing fun. Indeed, the present me sux. Antisocial. Hostile. Pessimistic. Dull. Plain. Sulky. And all. I dun lyke it one bit. I am still in search of the old me. The old me that has been lost after losing you. haish.

Well. Watever it iz. I hafta look forward to my future rite? hmm. Well. Shallnt dwell on those stupid n meaningless stuffs liao.

Hmm. Today change my style of dressing. Wore skirt. Haha. Ray saw me. o.O Gave me this look. Haiz. I noe i normally very tom-boyish lah. A few others oso lidat. *shrugs* Gave sum face lah! Nan de i so Girlish lorh. Haha. Went ngee ann. Alone. Cldnt find aneone. Haha. Pathetic. Nearly got lost. Hmm. I stil very confused wat course to take. Hah. Sian. On the wae out. Saw gracie n meifeng. Then went walk more. Haha. Crazy. Then went mac. Eat till i bloated lah. Growing fatter liao. Die. haiz. hmm. Then pei gwacie to cityhall. I miss working man. Studying is so boring. So stressful. So no life. Working is so much more fun. More lively.

Haiz. I miss Bpians. N bp tOo. Xcept for BUTTERCUp ttz. She is causing the downfall of bP lorh. Stupid school rules. Duno what the hell she is tinking. She sux man. Arrgh! Ban the traditional banana dance. Arrgh! Muz b becuz she duno how to shake lah. Inferior feelings. What is worse? She banned the banging of tables while doing the bP cheers? Arrgh. Sucky lah. No banging on tables then wat? Use head bang on wall meh? Duno wad she tinking lorh. Our heads not as hard as her IRONHELMET lorh. Stupid. Got brain oso dun wan use. Wait. Hold on. Does she even gt a brain? One dae, I gona go back bP n protest. Haf a strike. Get that buttercup off her seat. SHe doesnt even deserve that postition. To hell wif her man.

Okay. I m getting over agitated liao. Sian. No mood to blog liao. Stupid buttercup. Me go rest now. Buaiz. Tata.

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Long long time nv blog lo. The freaking O lvls wus over a week ago. No diff leh. Hafta admit kinda relaxed. No freaking exams. No stress. Nothing. But then. Itz reali kinda boring. Haha. Cuz me too broke lo. Cant reali go out haf fun. Usually stuck at hm BABYSITTING. Arrgh! How fun tt iz. -.-"

Hmm. Chalets cuming up lo. YippEe! *three cheers* Gona go suntanning. Haf lotsa lotsa fun. Go crazy. Yup! Haha. I m probably mad liao. Well. Too bad prisch no haf. DJ organise lah!! Letz go ESCAPE!! Heez. *evil grin*

Well. The oni upcoming festive season iz oni Christmas. Hopefully this yr Christmas wld b nicer. N fun-filled. =) *wishes hard* Most imptly. Must haf PRESSIES. Wahahaha. I m very greedy de. Hee. Well. Haf a nice hols peeps! Take care=)

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Long long time nvber blog le. Kinda bz. Haha. Dunno what i was doing all along. Studying away mostly. Haha. Well. Recently went watch Spidey2. In my opinion lah. It sux. Itz juz nt my type of movie bahx. Well. The graphics n filming nt bad lah. BUt then. It still lost to WINDSTRUCK. Heez. Well. Peeps whu dun lyke actionpack movie. DUn waste ya money bahx. Haha.

Sobx. Portugal lost. I din really support any team last night. But then. Saw Cristiano Ronaldo cry lidat. Kinda sad too. Haiz. Wat a closing ceremony.

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Juz got home. Tired arh. Last night too late offline ler. Then only slpt for 2 hrs bahx ler. Kinda got used to the soccer match time ler. I went to slp at 12+. Then woke up at 2+. But cannot watch oso. So sad. Then. Lie on bed. Thought abt lotsa things. Impt ones. Silly ones. Useless ones oso gt. Siao siao lah me. Nth beta to do. Heez.

Today is official first day of school. And it suX. First n foremost. Hafta get up so early. Sian sIan lorh. Then in sch. Morning assembly. Tt bloody woman say cant hear us sing the national anthem loud enuff. Make a BLOCk of ppl stayed back.-.- So lame lorh. What a waste of time. Then. The lessons today kinda sux lorh. I cld barely keep myself awake lorh. Tak boleh tahan liao. Today muz slp early early. Falling sick le. So sian. Btw. today czech won denmark 3-0. Hmmz. I wanna watch semi finals. Haha.

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YaAy! This morn de quarter final was real nice lorh. Kinda exciting. Their jerseys very nice manz. Heez. Both teams were so hiong in defending n attacking. It was another long match again. The penalties part was kinda nervous. I was praying so hard for Holland. ANd WeEe! They wOn. Haha. Close shave.

Hmmz. Went back to slp around 6am. Haha. Then kena woken up at 9+. So noisy. Then. Went out to study at lib. I guessed Tony saw me huh. >.< Haha. Kinda completed emaths hols assignments. Phy isp w/s. Chin will b shocked manz. Haha. Tml sch starts liao. So sian. So cant watch Czech republic vs Denmark. Hope Denmark will win. Heez.

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Juz reached hm. Alot of things took place today. I'll juz start off with the France vs Greece match. I woke up on time. Which was miraculous hor, DJ? Haha. Haiz. Itz a disappointing match. Haiz. France lost. Itz a pity really. Anywayiz. Throughout the match. I was semi-conscious. Haha. Kinda too tired liao. After nt slping for 19+ hrs. Heez. But then. Nv really slp lahz. Was kept awake smsing a fren. Haha. Went back to slp ard 5.30am.

Woke up at ard 11 am. Feeling lazy to get up lorh. Kinda slpy still. Bleah. I lacked LOTSA slp lorh. Nt fair. Haha. I really dun understand how they, the guys can tahan. Got any secret weapon or sth? Haha.

Then. Went catch movie. Din really wan to rot at hm. I reached ther on time. Heez. Went to watch *wInDsTrUck*. Or in chinese. Itz called WO DE YE MAN SHI JIE. Itz super nice manz. Hmmz. Consists of romance. Comedy. Bitbit violence. Haha. The beginning part is super nice manz. Wif the violence n the lame lame de comedy. Haha. Then. Towards the end. Gt parts real touching de. I cried bitbit lorh. But lucky. Noone see. Else. Will look stupid de. Heez.

Anwayiz. Gt one special part in the movie tt i lyke most. Itz a story of *~ why do ppl make promises by crossing their fingers~*. Here goes.

Once a upon a time. Gt this beautiful princess. Upon reaching a marriageable age. She sent out sum kinda invitations to princes. Five princes turned up. So. She decided to haf a guessing contest to see who can marry her. She hid her hand behind her back. Wif her pinky folded. And let the princes guess the finger folded. The first prince held up a thumb-up. The second prince held up his index finger. The third prince held up his Middle finger. And kena a tight slap frm the princess. The fourth held up his fourth finger. And dunno for wat reason fainted. The fifth held his pinky. And the princess crosses pinkies wif him. And they got married. Soon after they gt married. The prince hafta go to war leading the army. Before he left. The princess crossed pinkies wif him. Making him promise tt he wld cum back. Then. The prince nv did cum back after the war. The princess kept waiting. Believing tt the prince wld cum back. Then. One day. She felt lyke giving up. She sent out invitations again. Princes turned up. But none knew the correct way to get her heart. Which is to cross pinkies wif the princess. That particular day. A beggar turned up. The princess decided tt he shld b treated wif equality too. And. The beggar crossed pinkies wif her. At tt moment. The princess realised tt the beggar was her lost prince. They slept together. But when dawn came. The prince suddenly left. And. The very next day. The princess found the dead body of her beloved prince brought back. The prince has kept his promise and returned as a soul. Saddened by the death of her loved one. The princess drank poison. And lay down beside the prince. Wif their pinkies crossed.

Nice rite? This is a MUST-WATCH movie. ^^ I simply juz luv it. Yaay! Gonna catch it again. Heez. Tonight. Ermz. Or rather tml morn. I gonna catch soccer again. Sweden vs Holland. Woohoo. Their jerseys v nice de lehz. =]

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*sobx* Cant believe it man. England lost. Haiz. V disappointed seh. Juz missed by one penalty. The match begin v nicely lorh. Owen scored at the third min into the game. Then Postiga scored at the 83th min. Haiz. Then haf overtime play. Wateva tt is called. Two more goals by each team. Forgot the timing liao. Then. Went on the penalty. Haiz. Beckham missed his score lorh. What a pity. Kick so high. Haiz. Then when Portugal missed one penalty. I was jumping for joy. Then the next moment. England missed a shot again. Haiz. So sad. Dj. i nvber smashed my tv. I stil wanna watch France vs Greece de. And so on. Heez =p

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WoOhOo. Later on. At 2.45 am. I gonna stay up to watch it Wootz~. Haha. England will win. Yaay!! Haha. Bitbit sot de. *yawnx* Juz wOke up lah. Haha. Pon phy again. Haha. Heck care tt teacher manz. My phy is a gone-case liao. Heez. Well. nth much to blog liao. Will update the results of the quarter final. Haha. England shld win lah. Else my tV will b smashed. Heez.